.hati riang ria. \(^____^)/

Assalamualaikum & hello darlings ^__^

I'm back! Alhamdulillah, berjaya puasa harini walaupun quite late. I'm not feeling well right now. setiap bulan mesti flu aje. aritu mungkin kena hujan..masa g kuliah. Oh, btw, Semester 2 has started and I only had two classes last week. *Research Methodology 2 and Academic Writing 1 -with my dearest friends Moga, Hanis and Hisham. Luckily we didn't have any class on Friday due to Hari Malaysia. But it was totally a tiring day on that Thursday. I went straight to UKM after school and safely arrived home at 10.45pm. Sangat penat (T__T) Doakan saya drive elok-elok ye kat highway. Punyalah banyak kereta haritu. 80km/h je drive. hehe

Finally, managed to gather with my siblings (brothers, sis in laws, niece and nephew). So we planned to have BBQ on Friday night. *stok2 seafood ditaja oleh Angah since he stays in Kuantan & byk sgt fresh seafood there. Heaven je ^_______^  alah, forgot to use my *camera xbrape nak mahal snap pix. huhu yang ni je ada :)

fresh seafood ^__^

 that's my Along & his son *Akim :)

Sedih pulak..pix sket je. Malam tu guna my sis in law's camera. but still we had so much fun that night. Of course, tummy pon super cute la sebab makan banyak. hehe ^___^

The next day, after attending a wedding ceremony we planned to have a picnic @ Port Dickson. Yeay! sangat lama dah tak jumpa laut. bak kata anak buah *adik nak mandi lawot. :p Dah siap pack barang *bbq jugak dan si atoknye siap beli khemah lagi konon nak camping. 

@ home sweet home:Angah & wife

Makndak, khaleesya, KakRas & Mama

The view @Port Dickson :)

eh..nak jugak.. :p

Merenung jauh. eceh :p

Hah..tu dia~ hehe tak dapat nak snap pix masa mandi. Tu pon tak mandi sangat. Si budak kecik tuh takot. hehe It was a wonderful day for all of us. Dah lama tak berkumpul macam ni. Sebab masing-masing dah ada famili & komitmen. Alhamdulillah.

Sempat jugak jumpa si chenta hati saya. berdrama swasta tak ingat. Haish~ sabar jelah. tapi mampu untuk senyum bahagia, makan dan shopping. 

@Timesquare :)

Huee banyaknya gambar. ^__^ gumbira lak editing nih. So, back to normal life. Dah start kerjalalala. Dah start pening kepala nak buat assignment. Huuuu awak semua happy always okay. Jaga diri baik-baik, tgk macam saye nih kena hujan dah selsema. *kena makan vitamin C kot. huhu. Tkcare darlings. xoxo!

heart to heart

Assalamualaikum & hello.

It's a shame that a 26-year-old adult has no ability to control emotions that leads to a critical breakdown. I blame myself for being that person. I have to admit that I'm in the middle of..an inner crisis. Forgive me for my decision to be apart from you -temporarily. Yes, I know it sounds bad, but I have my own reasons of doing that not only to u, but to our relationship.

Why? I guess we both need to be alone in our zones. It's a better option and I know it won't -definitely it won't bring any harm to our relationship. At the end of every chapter in my life, at the end of everyday, you know you'll always be here -in my little heart, deep. too deep that I can't take you out and throw you away. Yes, dear. I'm not lying.

The only wish is to be away in a different world with no one except me. I'm trying to imagine myself far away from here, but with the presence of every single thing around me, it doesn't work out. Still, I need to move on with my life as if everything is normal. 

Being in confusion somehow gives me better concentration on myself. Perhaps, you feel the same way too. I let myself to think and reflect of all the things that we've gone through. I let myself to think the best solutions of each circumstance or issue that we face. I let myself to find ways not to be marked as  an immature person. 

I've been through a lot that I can't even put my feelings in words. Alhamdulillah, I'm able to stand up again and I'm healed. I just feel that love is a thrill. You fall in love, you feel happy, you share stories, you laugh, you cry and you're dumped. You get lost but once again, you're eager to seek for love again. But that's love; mysterious.

Forgive me for being harsh towards you. I don't mean to hurt your feelings. You have once told me and you feel that you're the victim. No you're not darling. The reason is,  I become more aware of things happen around me; I don't want to be a fool. And yes, I know you've tried your best to comfort me and win my heart. You respect me, you are willing to say 'sorry' even though it's not your mistake and you do things that you're supposed to do. There is nothing more that I ask from you because I know we're not perfect and I'm totally not a perfectionist.

That was how I felt few days ago. I have taken myself out of my zone and at this exact moment, I feel more comfortable with myself. I'm blessed to be given a chance to fall in love and embrace the beauty of love.

-and you are an island to discover.

.sepintas lalu.

Assalamualaikum & selamat hari raya. :p

Maaflah kerana tidak rajin untuk mengemaskini blog kesayangan kerana saya bukanlah blogger tegar yang boleh update 2-3 jam/ hari-hari. Tabik lah kepada yang boleh rajin untuk mengadap laptop dan update blog mereka. Idea yang tidak putus-putus. :)

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin. Walaupun kali ini, tidak lengkap dengan kehadiran abang dan kak ipar..namun raya tetap raya. Jadinya, kami bertiga jelah dirumah. Tahun ni, sungguh-sungguh tak rasa nak raya, rilek aje di rumah. Buat ala kadar aje...orang kate sederhana. cewah! :p

Sempatlah jugak haritu ajak encek abang berbuka puasa dirumah. Fuh, extra rajin la masak sedap-sedap kan. hee. bertambah pulak beliau, siap kena paksa tambah. bagus2. ^__^ Sempat jugak la beliau teman cik adek manes ni mengada-ngada g bazaar kat Senawang tuh. Ya, ramainya umat di sana. Agak berpeluh-peluh jalan dengan perut super cute. haha. Kepenatan mencari satin shawl kat satu booth ni. Punyala kuciwa sbb xjumpa2 kan..At last, masuk satu lorong kemah ni, haa dapat pon dan hasil tangkapannya 5 helai satin shawl telah kubeli. HAHA *puas* -tima kaseh laling manes belanja saya 1 shawl ye. sweet xoxo :)

Raya pon sempat jugaklah ke kampung ehem..bakal mertuaku yang tersayang. alahai, sekampong la kito. dekat je pon kampungnye. hee, amik peluang beramah mesreeeee. cewah, gatal. hahahh. planning tema grey okayy, tapi xsnap pics pon kita. *malu ramai kot time tuh* hehe xpela, thanks laling manes sebab mau beli baju baru raya tahun ni. sweeeet 2 kali. hahah -baru tersedak sebab raya next year will be a huge difference for us. wow. *insyaAllah, amin*

Kedatangan Syawal menandakan telah masuk bulan September. yah..sekejapan sudah ke hujung tahun. Padahal rasenye banyak kot azam-azam yang belum tercapai. Dan perancangan yg agak byk untuk dilaksanakan tahun ni..insyaAllah. Haritu dah register subjects for second sem. Alhamdulillah, selesai. dapat jugak stick together with my close frens *Hanis & Moga* ^___^

1. Kaedah Penyelidikan II

2. Penulisan Akademik I

3. Sosiolinguistik & Pengajaran Bahasa

Sociolinguistics? aduhai..ingatkan time degree jek kena blajo..confirm lah payahnye..nak amik subject lain tapi sudah full..harap2 la buleh score. *doa sangat2* tapi bila berfikir banyak2 kali..punyalah cuak kan..so kali ni, mau belajar dengan tenang *walopon KP 11 tu kena la jugak collect data* oh tidak! Semoga sem kali ni saya dapat maintain pointer. hoho optimis sungguh. *sampai terlupa eh saya ni part time student jela ok. keja pn nak kena maintain jugak. sabo2. huhu* Dah register nye, lagi 2minggu la kot start class. InsyaAllah, Khamis & Jumaat. Nak drive malam tu la agak nervous. doakan lah keselamatan saya..ye kwn2. :)

Pray for all of u too. Pesan saya, silalah belajar dengan sungguh-sungguh ye. insyaAllah msti tuhan tolong untuk sukses. jangan rase give up la ye..bila dah kerja, lain plak kena buat. *hutang nak kena bayar* lain la kalau suma harta benda di support oleh keluarga yang terchenta. huhu bersyukur sgt mama dan ayah banyak korban untuk saye ni. doa mereka pnjang umur...sihat sentiasa. aminnnn. ^__^ don't ever give up, walopon time study tu tiba2 datang angin ribut la, dok bercintan lepas tu frust tertonggeng nanges-nanges. dah pernah lalui pon semua tu. rasa sengih jek skarang. lama-lama nanti paham diri sendiri dan tau kekuatan kita. :) ada gak yang problem with friends..oh itu semua biasa.. ada time, we need privacy..there are times, friends are needed. Dan dari sahabatlah kita kenal diri kita, jgn lupe nak reflect/muhasabah apa yang kurang.. cewah bg nasihat la pulak ye. hehe :p

dah kul 2.05 am. punyalah boring kan sampai nak update blog. huhu..esok continue jalan raya lagi. ^___^

take care everyone. xoxo